Anonymous asked: from a while ago...6, 14, and 15?

6- something you wish hadn’t changed

my body. i have gained like 40 lbs since last February. 

14- what has been getting you down recently? 

nothing in particular, i’ve been insanely happy for almost a month. but if i had to pick, it’d be, again, my weight. 

15- if you could change one thing in your life, what would it be? 

i wish i had more friends. basically thats it in a nutshell. 

i think i’m gettting better omg 

i feel amazing

well

positive thinking 

yanno

omg

yee

i’m like made of smiles right now

even though i’m kinda pissed that half my family & random people at school read these posts. 

whatever.

<3 

Anonymous asked: This is a stupid question, but are you OK? And don't lie to me because then your just lieing to yourself.

not really. i mean, i won’t kill myself. i know that. for people that know me, don’t get freaked out. i’m not going to do it. but i’m just so tired of being alive. but shit happens, yanno? i have been getting used to it. everyday it’s a little bit easier to cope. i take medicine & everyone around me is here to help. it will take a little while, but i know i’m on the long road to recovery.

omg that sounds so cheesy but i don’t give a damn

Anonymous asked: oh, that's so sad, but don't cut yourself anymore,ur important, and always keep smiling :)

thankyou<3 it means a lot. 

i’m not cutting anymore. i’m trying really hard to be able to be friends with her again. i doubt it, but. she is the most amazing person i’ve ever met. i have to try.